who am i

i am a soldier in my own world. i keep on fighting with myself hoping to get some sort of answer for who i want to be. it feels weird not knowing what i want to do but i feel like i have too much free time without any direction of what i want to do or where i want to go. i feel that these labels attached to me from when i was younger are slowly disappearing and are being replaced with a sense of foreboding doom. i do not know what i want to do and there is nothing worse than a feeling of emptiness in ones life. but in all honesty, there is nothing.